I voted for Hilary, and this morning, I am waking up in a Trump, President-Elect world holding a mixed bag of apprehension and emotions.

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Fear urged him to go back, but growth drove him on.

-Jack London, White Fang

I felt that a quote from my favorite author was the best way to begin this post. Fear is such a powerful emotion, and it has manifested itself in my life in many different ways, ways that I have seen, but more importantly, in ways that I have never even realized.

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I run angry. Football allows me to take out some of my pain on the field

-Adrian Peterson

Despite the very unfortunate circumstance surrounding Adrian Peterson, this quote resonated deeply within me.

How to start this post? Lately, I’ve been learning a lot about myself, a lot more than I ever expected in such a short period of time. It feels like every little experience, every little trial, every little conversation, I’m starting to see another little piece of me.

How I react, how I respond, how I feel. They’re all related.

What hurts? What could I care less about? Who do I want to be? What am I craving?

And all of it feels so surreal, like an out of body experience. It’s as if I spent my whole life being me, and then one day woke up and realized that I knew nothing about myself. Let me try to explain.

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It’s been a long time since my mind has had any sort of clarity. I have to seize this opportunity.

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